trust no longer exist

It's the worst feeling in the

world to love and hate someone

all at the same time. And it's hard

to watch things change when all

you want is for them to stay the

same. It's funny but stupid how

you want everything and nothing

at the same time. It's crazy when

you want to let go, but you keep

holding on. And when you want to

move on, but you're stuck right

where you started. When feelings

come and go and you can't decide

what you want. When you have so

many things to say but you don't

know where to start. When you

want them in your life so bad, but

all you can do is push them farther

and farther away. It's so hard to

think back to how things used to

be and look at it now and realize

that things are different and they

may never be the same. You tell

yourself it's not worth it, but if it

really didn't matter, you wouldn't

spend so much time thinking about it