Sunday

if you could make someone love you

Think back to when you've been hurt...when someone has broken your heart. I know that I've been there. In the heat of my dark passionate angry hurt I've said some pretty ridiculous things. Things like "I hope I die in a car wreck, and that would really show him! Then he'll realize what he's missing".

You know...silly, hurt, selfish things.But sometimes the thoughts turn to things like "I wish I could make him love me." There it is...the problem. We can't control people's will. We can manipulate, influence, beg, cry, encourage, ridicule, but we can't control. We can't make someone love us. It sucks, it hurts, it's awful...but it's true.

AN INFORMAL LETTER TO A DIFFICULT FRIEND

Dearest friend,
I know our relationship has been difficult and we haven't really spoken in a long time, but it's recently become clear that we'll be seeing a lot of each other in the next few months. The issues we've faced in the past are going to resurface and we really, really need to work this out now before it's too late.I'll admit I've said some terrible things about you in the past. I apologize. You think me unintelligent for not understanding you, even after years of trying. That's not true. You're difficult, you know? I know I've given up on you in the past and even broke your trust by cheating, but never again. I'm not going to give up on you this time. I'm determined to understand. I'm determined to keep trying.That said, I hope things are easier this time around. I hope everything sinks in easier. I promise to keep trying despite how difficult you are. And you really are. Don't deny it and I'll try to keep my "hate" claims under wraps this semester.

MATH, I do want to be your friend. Really. Just help me understand you. Please.


MUCH LOVE,
IRISH