i miss IPSWICH. you know, you spend so many years wanting to get away. get away from all the people who thought they knew you. the boring nights with nothing to do but ride around for hours and sit in parking lots. the stupid drama and crazy fights. the ignorant people. the people who thought they knew everything. the rules. the curfew. high school....and then one day you wake up and you're in college and you wonder where the time went. you realize that you'll never go back to that. the high school dance blah blah. the laughs. the inside jokes. the slumber parties with your best friends. cheering on the sidelines. dancing in the rain. it's all gone. everyone says they cant wait to get away, and some still say they're happy to be away....but i'll be the first to say that i'm not ready to grow up. i want to go back to all that. even the ridiculous drama. i miss everything. i cant wait to go home...And as for you, why do you walk back in my life thinking we can pick up where we left off. i dont want to pick up. i dont want to continue. it's over. you make it so hard for me. you're completely ridiculous and i hate you. YOU RUINED ME. and i refuse to go back there, back to the memories, back to the nights where you made me laugh too loud one minute and cry too hard the next. i refuse to let you ruin me again. i was never happy with you, ever. and when i said i was, i lied. just like you did. thats all you are, a liar. and i hate you for everything you did. everything you said. i hope you lose sleep at night. realizing what you lost. and who you treated like shit. ill be your best memory. and i plan to keep it that way...
as for my beautiful boyfriend. i love you. and i always will. you're the better part of me and i wont ever let you go. ..
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